The little trust that Aaron had gained back is entirely gone. I won't put what he did in here because I don't know if it will bother him or not if people know. See Aaron? All you have to do is take those 5 extra seconds and ask yourself "Will this bother Laura?" And if there is any doubt in your mind DON'T FUCKING DO IT until you ask! I am really bothered by this, more like extremely bothered. I wouldn't just send guys those things without asking you.
You totally just brushed it off like it was no big deal. Empty "I'm sorrys" and no proof that it will "never happen again." I think you knew it would bother me, but just never thought I would find out. You are seriously challenged if, especially what only happened 2 weeks ago, you thought in anyway, shape, or form that this would be okay with me. Common sense tells you that if you cheated on me, and we are no closer to getting over it than when we were when you first told me, you shouldn't make it appear in anyway that you might be cheating on me. That was all I could think of when I saw that. And I don't care where ever the hell she lives, the fact is, you weren't thinking of me when you did it.
At any other time, I most likely would have been okay with this. Just asked you not to do it again, or at least ask me before you do it. BUT considering I still cry every fucking day from what you did, it bothers me just a little that you are involved with someone else, despite it being online.
I am so disappointed in you...I feel the same way right now as the night you told me about Monika. Just one little thing like that can make everything resurface again...Which is something I would have thought you know well. But apparently not. You obviously don't understand how much I am hurting and how badly I want it to go away. But when you do something like this, however insignificant it is to you, my pain is never going to go away.
Through all this sadness I am extremely angry at you. When I asked you about it all you did was try to justify it...Not make me feel better about it ONCE AGAIN. Your justifications didn't tell me the real reasons why you did it or why you made it seem like it was no big deal, even when I started crying. My heart physically hurts right now, and you won't even notice...Because you think just because you tell me "I won't ever do it again" means something to me. You already did it...You already hurt me. You can't take it back and I don't know how you can fix it. My hope is dangling by a thread right now...And YOU are the only one who can decides if it snaps.